If someone were to tell me I would have a beautiful life filled with JOY one day back when I was in high school I would not have believed them. I don't share this very much, but when I was in high school there were so many days where my prayer before going to bed would be "God, if you love me... don't let me wake up" Then, in the morning when I woke up...I would be genuinely disappointed. I felt like I had no purpose, no reason for being created. I had a sister who was good at EVERYTHING, but me...well, I wasn't good at anything. I didn't do well in school, I wasn't athletic, musical...nothing. I often questioned why God would make someone like me. Someone who wasn't good at anything...someone without purpose.
I remember a pivotal part in my life where I heard God so clearly say "I am proud of you, there is only one you" Such simple words that changed my life. I'm not saying I never had those 'what is my purpose' days anymore...but I did have a lot more days where I knew that God made me with purpose, special..and the only one like me. So, with that said I am still on a journey living my purposes. being who I was created to be. My life is full of joy and purpose and now I feel like there are SO many things I could do, I just need to choose!